Things you wish people knew about you

I wish people knew I'd talk to them if they started a conversation. I'm just generally too shy to start a conversation and things are generally awkward, but if somebody starts talking I'm glad to continue a conversation.

 

I wish people knew, or in some cases understood, that I'm actually a fairly introverted person. I don't leave replies late or neglect to start conversations because I don't like someone, it's because talking with people drains me. That and I'm honestly not that interesting and have little to say, so I find keeping a conversation going quite difficult at times.
I feel like I'd have kept more friends if people knew but it's not something that's easy to explain in a nice way, or to work into conversation at all sometimes.

 

Ditto at what Doomhound said. I can't start a conversation, but I can carry one to the ends of the earth if need be. It's just that the first step is the hardest.

My number one though is that just because I'm not a smiley person doesn't mean I'm not happy. My at-ease face looks stoic, serious, or (if I'm deep in thought) grumpy. Just because I'm not poisoned with Joker Gas doesn't mean I'm depressed. Just leave me alone please, I was better before you got in my face and told me to cheer up when I'm already happy behind the mask.

 

Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame. I don't know if i look that intimidating but people never seem to start conversations probably because of my usual facial expression, which is indeed just serious or blank. It is the greatest source of sarcasm, as I can drop sarcastic comments without people realizing it for quite some time, and when they finally do its quite funny. But it also probably scares people away.

 

I wish people knew that just because I'm smiling, doesn't mean I'm happy.
That I hide my scarred soul in a smiling mask and the world won't even know because they don't look passed smiling faces.

 

I have quite a few of these. My two big ones (carrying conversations and looking stoic) were taken by Doomhound and Zero, but I agree with those two quite strongly nonetheless. Now that I think about it, here are two more:

The first one is that I occasionally have a difficult time controlling the bridge between my thoughts and my mind. As such, when in casual conversation with friends, I'll sometimes start humming a song or recite some quick movie quote. I'm not delusional, nor am I trying to be rude or dismiss what you're saying. It was literally an accident, so just continue with your statements.

The second one (this is weird) is that, in the western world, children generally take their father's surname. People know this intellectually, so I don't understand why they forget it in conversation. This is why I can be half-Portuguese and have Portuguese citizenship while not having a Portuguese-sounding last name. Whenever my dual citizenship comes up in a conversation (generally because I make some joke about being able to leave the US whenever I want), people are always like, "You can't be Portuguese, you don't have a Portuguese last name!" I'm generally a chill person, so I casually explain that I inherited it from my mother. People always look at me like I'm some ingenious bastard and just say, "Oooooohhh, that makes sense! Why didn't I think of that before?" Because you forgot how western naming customs work?

It sounds minor, and to be honest it really is (how often can that reasonably come up in conversation anyways?), but it just pisses me off when it does.

 

Honestly right now because it's relevant, but I wish people knew/understood that just because I wouldn't want to go, doesn't mean I wouldn't like to be asked. I'd prefer to not have plans being made in front of me without being invited. My favorite part is afterwards are when people are like "you should have been there!" or "you missed so much stuff" because honestly no one tells me anything anyway.
It doesn't take that much effort to ask if I'd wanna go/do whatever lol. Even if I say no, it'd make me feel like I was actually included and wanted among my friends.

 

I really wish that people knew that I can't say 'no' because I feel bad when they ask me for something and I won't allow them to have it. So, they take advantage of me and passively force me to give something to them...

I mostly wish that people knew how sensitive I am and how hard of a life I have, so that they'll stop making fun of me and putting me down. Because honestly, I'm so sensitive, that I feel as if I murdered somebody if I made them said. And I also wish that people knew that I love animals so much, because people often talk about how 'terrible' animals are around me on purpose to make me angry and cry. I mean, really? Who wants to see a sad twin cry? Hopefully not everyone...

I also wish people knew that I'm shy, so that they won't think I'm purposely antisocial. And another thing, I wish people knew I love Nintendo, especially Pokémon, Kid Icarus and The Legend Of Zelda so much that I like it more than anybody else in the world (or at least equal with the people who love it the most so I won't offend anybody), just so people know what I like.... And one final thing, I just want people to know that I am NOT interested in doing the wrong thing, that is; I am NOT interested in speaking in class, I am NOT interested in going to places where I shouldn't go in school, and I am NOT interested in cheating! Honestly! I get 'pressured' into doing the wrong thing. It's like people want to get me into trouble! It's a good thing I persistently say 'no'.

There are so many more things to say but I can't get them all out of my head.

 

I wish people knew that even if I am outgoing, I'm scared and if I stutter on replies, its not because I don't undestand or care, its ecause I am scared of mysef and reactions

wow that was deep

 

I'm quite heavily introverted and I don't like attention, so I naturally tend to not draw attention towards myself or to my voice. Because of this, it is hard for me start a conversation, especially outside of the internet, where I would actually have to go to people to talk to them. However, I don't see myself as a shy person, even though it is something that could be quite easily used to describe me.

Also, I tend to make some slightly offensive jokes that are often quite sarcastic (I know, it doesn't work that well on the net), but I don't want to offend others too much. It is natural if you would be offended by them, but if it was too much, just say so. I might also say somethings quite bluntly.

And lastly, while I might seem like that I'm emotionless or have very few of them, I just tend to not show them, due to various different things that have happened in the past. I can get angry, but due to what I have done while I was angry, I'm "scared" of becoming angry, since I could severely hurts others and not feel bad about it at all, so I just ignore most things that irritate me, so I usually try to stay calm or either pretend to be calm.

 

Something else, I really wish people would know that I'm serious when I make up my mind. Everybody I know always forces me to say what's on my mind even though it's too personal and I really can't say it. Everybody, family, friends, everybody. It's a bad thing, it makes me feel like everybody wants to know so they get to know me. They won't help if I say what's on my mind, all they'll say is "Get over it," or "Stop feeling that way", or "Just... Don't worry,". No helpful advice whatsoever. It seems that everybody is selfish, trying to get me to say something personal just for the sake of knowing something and then not offering to help afterwards, only to get angry at my thoughts. Also, people always expect me to toughen up even though I can't.

Huff... I just riled myself up, didn't I? If I said something that was wrong, I didn't mean anything offensive.

 

I wish people knew that I hate being demanded to draw detailed/difficult pictures for free, to include their OCs in my story when I never asked for other people's OCs, and other general demands without even asking if it's okay first... I end up doing it anyway but it stresses me out because I've told my friends tons of times not to demand hard drawings/stories from me but they don't listen... I wish they knew how stressed and miserable I feel when they boss me around.

 

I just wish people knew the mental strain I sometimes go through. I come off as a lazy person, yet somewhat cheerful, but fairly frequently inside I'm struggling to move. Bad enough I have tendinitis in the legs and a permanent hay fever that makes breathing kinda hard, but when you have the weight of the past sitting on your mind it gets pretty hard. I say a lot that I don't really care what people say about me, or what they do, but deep down, the little child within me is still screaming whenever I get some sort of abuse in my direction.

I also wish people wouldn't assume that just cause I'm lazy doesn't mean I don't get work done. A few of my college mates keep badgering me about being lazy, but they have no right to, not when I got 5 distinctions last year and they only got 1 each. OK, one of them has an excuse, he has a part time job after all, but the other really doesn't have any ground to stand on, and it just gets a bit annoying after a while when you get repeatadly insulted for laziness. I work at a different pacing and different times to you guys, so don't keep on barking at me for unorthadox methods.

Next up, I wish people knew that I fear being left out of something. For what I'd say would be 10 years of my life, I grew up being outcast, left out, not wanted. If there was a group activity in school, I was just a wooden post: my existance was practically nill. These things have scarred me. If I get left out of something, it brings back all those memories, and makes me feel like I'm just unwanted trash. OK, so maybe the person thinks I wouldn't like the thing being offered, I'd understand them not asking me, but I still wanna know that I'm welcome. If I'm not just say it: either way I'll be OK, just so long as I know what's going on.

And finally, I wish people knew that when I ask a tonne of times for them to read or look at my art or something, it's not cause I'm uber proud and want to show the world: I genuinely want to know what I've done right and what wrong. Some people irl have accused me of being a bit egotistic for said things, but in reality if I don't get an opinion I start worrying: what if I did something bad, what if it's horrible, what if what if etc etc. The past has plagued me as such, worrying if I do something wrong. Heck, even if I break one of the million mugs we have here, it still feels like I broke a law. Just understand that my asking for something to be viewed is simply me panicking over thoughts of it being awful or something.

Phew, this turned, a little bit into a rant I just wish people knew just how warped I've become is what I'm trying to say. And I wish people knew how I genuinely mean no harm.

 

Same. I use my happiness as a defense system: as long as I appear to be happy, I feel like I'll be less of a target. Also, if people like me, that means they don't hate me or anything.
What you say, Lady Smugleaf, is mostly my previous school year explained. I still have it now, only it's a bit less.

Also, I want people to know about my brain. I feel like I have the biggest imagination on the planet, and that combined with my pretty big knowledge and my wish to make everyone smile causes me to make up all sorts of weird scenarios and blurt them all out. People often look at me like "Just shut up!" or "Act normal!" (the second one is a very common thing to say in The Netherlands, apparently), but I can't, because it's just how my brain works. I've tried changing it, but I failed. Sorry people, but you'll just have to deal with my ridicilous imagination... ;P

 

That while I may come off as intimidating or aloof, I'm really not! I'm always open to talk and make friends, I'm just a really quiet person unless I'm spoken to. A lot of people have said they're intimidated by me and it makes me feel bad because I really don't want to be, but I'm not sure how to change that xD

 

I wish others would know that i'm shy in real and on the internet. Sometimes i'm afraid that i'll say/type something stupid that no one will understand, stutter, or make a grammar mistake. (Which i'm probably making a ton of them right now while i'm typing this!). It's not easy for me to walk up to someone new and say "hello". I always wait for someone to talk to me. However, sometimes I do try approaching others myself.

I also wish others would know that it's not easy for me to keep a conversation going sometimes. I like Video Games, Pokémon, and stuff on Youtube, but that is pretty much it. Others tell me: "Why don't you talk about something else?" I do try, it's just whenever I try and do so someone says "Ok" within seconds. (I swear the word Ok is a conversation killer.)


One last thing: I wish others would know that I can't be pushed around. I know a lot of people within the past couple of weeks who wanted me to stay online to talk to them (Though I was tired!), give away one of my accounts on some random site because the don't have the stuff I have, or some people who influence me to join their side in an argument. Just no...I've been pushed around a lot when I was a kid and I'm not going to let it happen ever again, and some people don't get the meaning of the word "No."

 

I wish people knew I fight crime during the night as the famed vigilante The Black Death.

Though on a serious note, I wish people knew how difficult it is for me to speak in person. My tongue is too big for my mouth, and my contradictions are a plenty. It's best if people are patient about it and let me catch up.

I also wish people didn't think I was as independent as they think right now. I love people and I like talking too them, but I always have to be the one to start the conversation, and sometimes keep it going