What is one fact about you that no one would guess?

I generally try to avoid it now, but throughout life I've had serious depression issues. They've been with me for as long as I can remember now... But having them isn't nice. Whenever I do something wrong, I almost amplify the magnitude of what happened, making me kind of collapse inside. I tend to avoid it now, but it still happens from time to time.

 

People who know me IRL often remark that I can be intimidating. I admit, I am starting to see why they say this. I'm tall, bulky, rather strong, and sometimes harsh to those who try to push my buttons. When I look at myself in the mirror, I see someone who looks potentially dangerous. People seem to assume I know this and keep this appearance about me on purpose.

Actually, that terrifies me. I never wanted people to perceive me like this. I've always wanted to be open and inviting to others so that I can help them. I love helping others more than anything, and I can't do that if they're afraid to approach me, as I've been discovering has been the case for many people. It saddens me, and yet nobody knows that I don't like being intimidating. Everyone I ask about it says it's a "cool look" and that they thought it was intentional.

 

I hate doing math because it makes me feel stupid. I've did decimals and converting fractions for weeks and I still can't get it. I took me to highschool to finally learn long division.
It doesn't help that my other siblings are whizzes at math. My older sister did calculus and physics in high school and I can't even get past pre-algebra.

 

Not sure if this is something that others know about me yet, but although I may seem rather outgoing and talkative online or when I'm talking to my friends via text messaging, I am rather shy and reserved in person. When I'm around most people, I tend to be quiet and listen more than speak, unlike them who are naturally outspoken. This might lead to people thinking that I'm unfriendly and arrogant and do not wish to interact with them, but this is entirely the opposite of who I really am. Once you get past my quiet exterior and get to know me better, I believe I'm great company and a loyal friend.

 

I laugh really much, i am pervert and i can move my ribs and diaphragm using my muscles, those things you rarely get to know about me when using text

 

I believe that no one would guess that I would like to look pretty or attractive to others if I could. I actually want to be pretty even though I don't have the figure for it yet... But I'm actually doing something about it by going to gym!

I think others also wouldn't guess the fact that I am actually more often than not scared of being in a car (but I'm not scared when I'm in a bus or a train) and I'm absolutely terrified of strangers - especially men - because I'm scared of what they could do to me... It's something I'm working on...

 

A lot of people have no idea that was/still am Anorexic. They all just assumed that I was naturally small or I was thin because of all the running I did. Its really sad looking back at some of my old pictures and seeing what I put myself through at the cost of perfection. Even to this day I still can't eat in front of people and talking about weight or food really makes me uncomfortable. What's even worse is that once you start to eat more, they think you're cured, but its not that simple! I still have the same mentality, and pretty much everyone is just completely oblivious to it all.

 

I don't think a lot of people would guess that I need to have something playing in my room, whether it's a TV episode or music, or something, in order for me to fall asleep. I used to be scared of sleeping alone when I was younger, and that's what I did to alleviate it. And, yeah, most people listen to music or something while they fall asleep, but I literally cannot sleep otherwise. My mind wanders and I end up keeping myself awake because I'm either afraid or won't stop thinking about....well, anything.

And sound is the perfect distraction.

 

here's something slightly happier. I am a chocolate snob. If I am eating plain chocolate, then it better be good stuff and at least 65%.

 

Even though i am "the funny guy in the chat", I hate a lot of things.
Just to give few examples.

Over sensitive people
Easily offended people
Hypocritical People
Ignorant people
Organized religion
Winter
Talonflame
If someone cuts cheese from the middle.
People who refuse to listen
Stupid people (especially teens)
People who worship idiot idols.
Rap music and culture
Racists
People who dont want to change their ways or try to make their lives better
andandandnadandandandand so much more.....

Yup. Aint easy being me.

 

I can't eat chocolate because I develop rashes when I eat it. Its awfully terrible so there is just some sugary treats that I cannot tolerate.

Also I really dislike ice cream. It all can just melt and go away.

 

Most people don't know it, but I love Musical Theater. People see me walk around with like pop punk and screamo bands on my shirts, and they assume I don't enjoy musicals and whatnot.